It's been a while since I've actually updated, I've had some trouble with my blog, but I'm back!
Wow, so I'm half way through my first semester of grad school- it's really crazy how time flies..I can't believe it. I'm loving my program though, and all the people in it. It has truly been a blessing to me, and I have learned so much. I really think I've learned more in half a semester of grad school than I did in my 3 years of undergrad..craziness!
Life has been great lately, absolutely divine. I'm still struggling, still learning, still accepting myself, still striving, still trying to do my best. Despite all of the things I've learned lately about loving and accepting yourself and others as you are, I can't stop striving for perfection in myself. I can't stop putting so much pressure on myself, thinking I have to be the best at everything, I need to look a certain way, blah blah. I think I've always had these voices in my head, but I have to learn to overcome them. At times I can, but sometimes I just am my hardest critic to be honest. I feel like with me, I'm feeling really good and confident in myself, or the complete opposite. I'm 21 years old (almost 22) and still trying to find a balance in my life, still trying to figure basic things out, and still trying to find myself. The thing is, I think everyone else is doing the same thing, people are just good at covering their feelings up- I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve.
I know peace is something you eventually find in your life, but it's also something you must find for yourself. I have literally been analyzing myself ever since I started the counseling program..it's kind of hard not to when we have a "Group therapy class" where we basically just talk about our feelings and emotions the entire time lol. Anyways, I've had to take a good, hard look at myself and I've been able to see how things in my life have affected me, and I've also had my eyes open to how lucky I have been my whole life. So many of the things I thought were rough in my life were nothing compared to some of the things my classmates have had to deal with. I am so so lucky to have had the support and love from my family and friends my whole life. Sure there were things in my life that sucked, and still affect me to this day, but they are minor things- I am still blessed beyond believe, and all of those trials I experienced literally shaped me into who I am today.
So basically, here's what advice I need to give to MYSELF, so I'll just share it with you as well :)
-Love yourself for who you are, don't try so hard to constantly change things, be content.
-Love is the most important thing in the world- be able to accept love from others, even when you feel like you don't deserve it.
-Find a place of peace, no matter what it is or how you get there.
-Remember you are created in God's image, He loves you as you are, and He does NOT make mistakes.
honor Him in all you do, and strive to live a life that is glorifying to Him.
-Take a look at your priorities. What are you spending most of your time doing or thinking about?
-Be vulnerable. Open yourself up, share with others, and be willing to share things with them.
-Be good to yourself.
-Never take a single second for granted.
-Count your blessings.