So today has been a good day.
Surprisingly enough.
For most girls, the day after they break up with their boyfriend is the worst day ever, they feel like crap, cry all day, never leave bed, and eat a gallon of ice cream. It was the exact opposite for me. I got out of bed, went and worked out with a friend (I ran 5 miles, so pretty good for me), I confessed to her how happy was, and how guilty I felt that I was so happy. She just laughed at me and started talking about crazy ex's.
After working out, I went to my internship. usually it's boring, but today was really good, I liked it.
Then I went to sign a lease for a new apartment. So, originally, I was going to get an off campus apartment by myself, but then decided I really don't feel like living alone, you know? It's just not as fun. So now I'll be living near campus, with 3 other girls. I'm pretty excited about it, too.
After that, I went to the grocery store to get some food for the south beach diet. I was telling some of my friends how motivated I feel to get in good shape and look good, not only because I'm back on the market, but I just feel good, I just want to look good for myself.
Now, I'm chillin' and going to see a movie tonight with some amazing friends. I'm pretty excited about life now. Things are different and I think we were both ready for a change. I can say in all honesty that ou relationship really ended months ago. All of the fun, passion, romance, everything faded away. It happens.
I'm excited to be on my own though. I'm excited to regain my independence and just embrace it and have fun. No more talk about marriage or the future or kids or jobs or any of that crap, embrace the day as it comes, one day at a time.
Like I said, I still feel completely heartless to be happy right now...
*shrug* oh well.
xoxo
Surprisingly enough.
For most girls, the day after they break up with their boyfriend is the worst day ever, they feel like crap, cry all day, never leave bed, and eat a gallon of ice cream. It was the exact opposite for me. I got out of bed, went and worked out with a friend (I ran 5 miles, so pretty good for me), I confessed to her how happy was, and how guilty I felt that I was so happy. She just laughed at me and started talking about crazy ex's.
After working out, I went to my internship. usually it's boring, but today was really good, I liked it.
Then I went to sign a lease for a new apartment. So, originally, I was going to get an off campus apartment by myself, but then decided I really don't feel like living alone, you know? It's just not as fun. So now I'll be living near campus, with 3 other girls. I'm pretty excited about it, too.
After that, I went to the grocery store to get some food for the south beach diet. I was telling some of my friends how motivated I feel to get in good shape and look good, not only because I'm back on the market, but I just feel good, I just want to look good for myself.
Now, I'm chillin' and going to see a movie tonight with some amazing friends. I'm pretty excited about life now. Things are different and I think we were both ready for a change. I can say in all honesty that ou relationship really ended months ago. All of the fun, passion, romance, everything faded away. It happens.
I'm excited to be on my own though. I'm excited to regain my independence and just embrace it and have fun. No more talk about marriage or the future or kids or jobs or any of that crap, embrace the day as it comes, one day at a time.
Like I said, I still feel completely heartless to be happy right now...
*shrug* oh well.
xoxo
Sorry I missed tonight, I know you had fun with the lovelies. I'm supposed to Skype with your sister tomorrow :-D Hope I do get to see you soon too. Can't wait for the beach.
ReplyDeleteDon't feel heartless. It's a way of you protecting yourself, and moving about doing good things for yourself is what you need to do. There may be ups and downs, but take them in stride; you know people have your back. Love much~
Thanks Leah, love you so much :)
ReplyDeleteMaybe I will skype with you girls! lol
and I most definitely can NOT wait for the beach, ahhh!
Ditto on what Leah said. You are allowed to feel relieved and even happy. I have seen relationships become an imprisonment of people's lives and it's such a shame. But lately I have also seen how free people can become when their identity is no longer found in someone else. I'm excited for the new life that you will be experiencing! Love you!
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