An Idea...

So, I have been on and off with the idea of getting a tattoo- mostly off lol. I'm always thinking of crazy "ideas" and then being over them in like a few weeks (like the vegeterian idea) lol.
So anyways, IF I do get a tattoo, I'm going to make sure that it's something I really really will want for the rest of my life and something that has meaning. So here's what I'm thinking about...just not the same colors:



So, this is actually the National Eating Disorders Symbol. I think this would actually be a really awesome tattoo, because not only has eating disorders been something I have struggled for several years, it is also what I strive to help others with most, which is why I hope to be an eating disorder specialist one of these days. I have felt the pain it brings, and there is nothing more that I wanna do than to be able to help other women or men struggling with eating disorders. I also know the amazing love and healing God has shown me through all of that as well. I always knew there was a reason why I was going through it, and now I know why- to help others who are struggling with the same thing. Eating Disorders are so common nowadays, and someone you know is probably struggling with one whether you know it or now. Everyone has something in their life that is their big interest, their passion, and well this is mine. It's something that truly interests me, and I would love to help anyone who I can get through it. If you have an eating disorder, don't think it's normal and that it's just okay. Tell someone you trust- heck, talk to me if you want, just tell someone, or else things will never get any better. Trust me.

As far as me and my past struggles with eating disorders, I have come such a far way. I can not even imagine how different my life would have been if I hadn't been obsessing about my body and what I was eating, but it's brought me to where I am today, and I like where I am.
Although I still obsess about my body, I still always say "I need to lose 10 lbs", I "diet" a lot, restrict my calories, and so on, I am coming back to that place of peace where I know that it doesn't really matter how much I weigh, God doesn't care how much I weigh, so why should anyone else? lol. I am guilty of putting my obsessions with weight and my body before God, and I don't want to do that. I know I will probably always struggle with this my entire life, but that's okay with me, because it reminds me of how much I need to rely on God to help me through, and it's not something I can get through by myself. But as for right now, I'm in a good place. Sure I may have gained a few pounds in the past year, but I'm healthier and I'm eating the right way. I'm listening to my body, and I feel good so that's really all that matters.

xoxo,

Rach



"You are the only exception"